this is gross, and EXTREMELY personal to me, but heh whats the internet for right?

so im 16, live in the us and female (prolly the only chick on this lame site), pretty much your average teen. except that i have an obsession with older guys. like, my dad. lol. three weeks ago, we were smoking pot together (yeah my dads cool, he says he'd rather i smoke with him than some laced shit off the streets) and he kinda passed out. i started coming down an hour later or so, and was just bored. i looked at him and he had this masive wood making a tent in his pants, freaked me out at first... so yeah, i was still kind of high, but it was totally my own descision to pull out his dick and go down on him...... lol....... and now i feel like a total gross whore..... and i can't.. look.. him.. in.. the face.... fuck, sorry if this is hard to read, but its equally difficult for me to write, and I really want help regarding the situation at hand... because although i feel like a skank, I STILL AM SOOO HOT FOR MY DAD...
plz believe me, if you don't just post somewhere else, but i really want help with this......

thx, nicole